Hay gurl gurl hay !
So, yeah. I remember seeing you around when we were freshmen and you would walk around with I (your twin) and you were both so friendly that I wanted to be both of your friends. I saw you both give hugs to everyone and even though I didn’t know you, I would give you a hug anyway and you would both return them, which made me happy, but also embarrassed when I think about it because I barely knew you.
And I also know that you want to separate yourself from her, so that’s enough of that.
I remember when we became closer friends and your inner world opened up to me. It was really interesting that a girl like you could have a world such as yours. It was vibrant and sensual, and was hopeful and full of sentiment, and love. I didn’t notice before, but now I can tell when you put up your defenses because I got to know you better. The way you do that is by not giving a flying fuck.
I really like that you are able to be yourself no matter the circumstance. You’re like one of the brighter stars in the night sky. You’re funny, caring, determined, free-spirited, and independent. Those are some really great qualities to have.
I remember when me, you, and Nathan were in the library and you strut around and your juggles would juggle. It was hilarious. I remember when we were bus buddies to Cuyamaca, and I tried to feed you pizza LOL. I remember when you were feeling sad and I asked you to come with outside, and then I grabbed your hand and we danced. I remember when you told me you were leaving shortly after school ends, moving away from everybody. And now you’re going to join the Navy, which I thought about today, and it made me cry worse than that day. The day you leave will be hard for me. I don’t want to see you go.
C, just remember that I love you, and all of your other friends, too. When you’re feeling down, all you have to do is remember that there are people in the world that love you very much, and we would all be very sad if something terrible happened to you. You are an amazing person who has their eyes set on the prize, and you must never take your eyes off of it because I know you’ll be able to do it if you give it all that you’ve got. You are super strong and life always seemed like a piece of cake to you from my eyes. And you know, maybe commitment isn’t so bad; you can find someone and be one together with him.
And also, when you get to end of that finish line and no one is there, know that I will be, because I love you.
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‘It’s hard for me to open up to people. So when I do, it means a lot to me.’
I’ve never told anyone the full story of my past, but jaded fragments are scattered amongst individuals AKA my friends. I won’t share the whole story because I don’t know if I can.
So when I was about 2 or 3, I have memories that have faded of my parents arguing. It was terrifying, but I never felt scared during those moments because I didn’t know what to think. I was shocked. But it wasn’t long until my mom left my dad and it was just me, her, and my two siblings.
Life after that was fun. But it also came with a lot of sadness…
I never told anyone this, but my mom was involved with drugs. Heavily. She sold drugs at night to make a living for her family. Albeit not the proudest thing my mom has ever done, I think it was also one of the most loving things she has done. A lot of people may not think so, but I see it differently. Even though my earlier life was rough in the family area, it still made me happy that we could be happy.
It wasn’t until that day when the police barged into my home and took my mother into custody. It was just my siblings and I, looked after by a mean uncle and his whore of a girlfriend. But besides the point, I was rescued by two of the most amazing people in the world: my grandparents. My grandparents have done so much for me, my brother, and my sister. They were very hardworking, even into their older years, and still are. I love them so much. As for my mother, she turned her life around, found a job, and did it all for her kids, the most valuable things in the world to her.
So when I say I am one of the most luckiest persons in the world, I think I am lucky because I am surrounded by loving family and friends, the people who would sacrifice much of themselves and their own time for my own happiness; that I have almost everything I could ever want and still be elated; that I live a good life where I don’t have to struggle much and I get to worry about such petty things like looks and what I eat so I don’t gain weight while other people my age fight battles they shouldn’t have to in horrible places; and finally, because I am able to love myself and believe in a happy future.
Thank you, to you all.
I love you.